The Unspoken Sufferings of the Unguided Meditation Enthusiasts!

Namaste Guru Jee,
Guru jee i am.. iam 24 yrs old. i have done meditation but from last six months iam feeling very weird type of energy at centre of my head. its like dynamic pressure. it move when i try to resist this flow. when i sit still i feels great peace. i cant able to get rid of it .before i feels blessing,divine favour and protection.but now i feels just opposite of it totally disconnected from reality. continuous resistance to this force which i dont know.please guru jee tell me remedy how i get well.if you suggest i can visit you anywhere in india.

thanks

– Manish Singh (manishssinh47897@gmail.com)

Shivoham!

Beloved Manish,

I can truly understand the kind of symptoms you are going through and empathize with it. By the grace of divine currently you are in the zone from where the recovery is most likely. It is not uncommon to get some or the other disturbed bodily functions among the meditation enthusiasts. Since you asked, it is an opportunity for me to answer many other questions wherein people have come up similar symptoms. Apart from what you have described there are many many more symptoms that haunt many people who get into meditation.  Some are as below –

  1. weird uninvited feeling between the eyebrows
  2.  pressure or pain in the root of the nose
  3. sensation of heaviness in the upper middle back
  4. fluttering of ear drums, eyes and hiccups
  5. indigestion and persisting gastritis
  6. temperature, IBS, IBD and colic
  7. impotence, loss of semen in urine
  8. heaviness of chest and palpitation
  9. loss of purpose in life
  10. inability to relate and weak memory
  11. lethargy and disturbance in sleep cycle
  12. anxiety, depression and so on..

Mind you, these are real symptoms and not imagination or psychosomatic disorders. They have their origin in the energy-body or pranamaya kosha which only an adept in the science of meditation can identify and possibly suggest a healing counter-practice too. Although the complete reversal is not always possible or may take years. Since every symptom indicates a specific issue with your energy body thus every specific symptom requires to be attended differently. There’s no umbrella remedial process that can deal with every symptom one may encounter thus if such a thing (discomfort, sensations, pain or feelings etc.) happens stop the practice immediately and approach your teacher. Just like millions of meditators, I guess, you too haven’t begun your practice under any teacher’s personal guidance.

You say “i can visit you any where in India”. I shall help you even if you don’t visit because you can be helped, your condition is such but only if you could go to any part of India to sit in front of a teacher before you began your practice, would have saved you from this condition. I can tell you that hundreds of SOS mails are received every month here seeking advice and help by such people who start complicated meditation and spiritual processes to their own liking without any guidance whatsoever. I have written so many times about the need of a teacher that it feels like painful repetition to me now say that again. And yes.. upon this people write “Why can I not just sit silently and meditate? Is it a rocket science that we need a teacher? Who are you to stop people from meditating?”

Through this reply, I want to simply tell those enthusiasts that; “You can do this by yourself and you must do but ONLY IF YOU CHOOSE TO SIT SILENTLY AND NOT MEDITATE!” This instruction can’t be clearer than this. Just sit silently and don’t do anything else.. stop talking in the head. Just stop talking to yourself for that time… Lo and behold! You are already taken the first step in meditation however if you want to use certain technique, use the power of visualization and concentration, breathing, mudras and mantra it must be taken from an adept.. I find myself repeating.. but who’s listening? Anyways..

Manish, you can do the following for your condition –

  1. Stop immediately everything (technique etc.) you were doing.
  2. Special attention you need to give to your focus. Do not focus on any part/chakra or outer things (such as flame, point on the wall, any chakras etc.)
  3. Get up before sunrise and spend morning walking barefoot on the earth.
  4. Do not forget to occasionally look at the rising sun (don’t focus there too)
  5. Stay active, keep a smile on your face. Socialize, laugh and make merry.
  6. Take Vata pacifying herbs and drink lots of water.
  7. Last but not the least if you get the opportunity to see a teacher in person do take out time to meet them. (You may even do it ONLINE in these Corona times.)

At the end I must say “Sitting silent & Not talking to yourself in the head‘  is the best and only meditation you can do until you see a teacher. It will give you every benefit that you might be seeking through meditation but in this method you may not have a kundalini  story to share with your friends. (smiles)

You must meditate – It is your birthright!

-Master AD

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शरीरमाद्यं खलु धर्म साधनम् !

स्वास्थ्य ही जीवन का आधार है और स्वास्थ्य अर्थात शरीर की रक्षा मनुष्य का सबसे बड़ा धर्म है। शास्त्र कहते हैं “शरीरमाद्यं खलु धर्म साधनम” | इस दिशा में हमारे पुरातन मनीषियों ने कुछ बहुत ही वैज्ञानिक नियम दिए थे उसमे से एक था स्वच्छता का नियम और दूसरा संक्रमण की रोकथाम के व्याहारिक तरीके। स्वच्छता की विधियां तो सहर्ष स्वीकार हुई परन्तु संक्रमण से बचाव के तरीके की परिणति हुई एक ऐसी प्रथा में जिसमे इसे जाति के आधार पर प्रयोग किया जाने लगा। वह तरीके वह विधान सही थे परन्तु उनके गलत व जातिगत प्रयोगों से न केवल उन विधानों की दुर्दशा हुई, सिद्धांतों की अवहेलना हुई बल्कि अंततः भारतीय समाज में ही इसका घोर विरोध हुआ। इसी देश में समाज सुधारकों ने स्वास्थ्य-विज्ञान की अवहेलना करते हुए, वे सारे नियम ताक पर रख कर भी एक घुले-मिले समाज को वरीयता दी।

कोरोना जैसी महामारी के कारण समय का चक्र फिर से हमें वहीँ लाकर खड़ा कर गया जहां से हम चले थे। आज सन २०२० में लगभग १०० साल बाद हम फिर से छुआछूत को समझ रहे हैं, अपना रहे हैं। वही सब कर रहे हैं जो पहले करना गुनाह था – लोगों की अवमानना थी। पर हाँ अब यह सही मालूम पड़ता है – और प्रसन्नता की बात है क्योंकि इसमें वैज्ञानिक दृष्टि दीखती है। चलिए देर से ही सही – एक गलत तरीके से अपनाये जाने वाली वैज्ञानिक प्रथा के पीछे की सत्यता को अब समाज की स्वीकृति है। परन्तु दुःख का विषय है कि हमने पहले इस छुआछूत की वैज्ञानिकता को न ही देखा और न ही सही तरीकों से अपनाया। आशा है अब वैज्ञानिको द्वारा स्वीकृत यह छुआछूत सदियों तक चलता रहेगा और फिर से वह सब नहीं होगा जो पहले भी नहीं होना चाहिए था

अब आप को बुरा नहीं लगता यदि कोई व्यक्ति आप को घर के दरवाजे से बाहर ही बिठा कर बात करे, दूर से नमस्कार करे और आप से शारीरिक दूरी बना कर रखे। पहले किसी संभावित संक्रमण से अपनी रक्षा के लिए यदि लोग दूसरे के बैठने के स्थान पर उसके जाने के बाद गंगाजल छिड़कते तो यह अवमानना थी परन्तु अब यह वैज्ञानिकता है। देखिये अभी आगे-आगे.. क्या पता, खाप-पंचायतों के संगोत्रीय विवाहों के सघन विरोध को भी आज से 50 साल बाद जीनोमिक्स के विकास होने पर वैज्ञानिक मान्यता मिले।

– आचार्य अज्ञातदर्शन आनंद नाथ जी के सौंदर्य लहरी पर प्रवचनों से उद्धृत

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Purpose of life – The Existential Question!

Dear Acharyaji.. I had a question.

Must one feel grateful for being given this life? Must one be grateful for ones ancestors that were the reason for my birth? I can be grateful for so many things – my family, nature, basic needs etc.. but there appears to be a block in cultivating gratitude for my existence – I find no reason for my existence or non existence in the physical world.

– B. Ranga (USA)

Shivoham!

Beloved Ranga,

You began by saying “I have a question” but then You have asked questions after questions… (smiles). Many questions, though thoughtful do come from you even during my discourses on Kabir and Shiva Sutra that you attend. These continuous questions simply means you are living in your mind for only mind can keep us engaged in asking questions rather than living life as it is unfolding – right here.. right now. This also means you aren’t comfortable in your emotions.. thus can’t live through heart! To live through heart would mean to operate from that center and if one is not comfortable with oneself in there.. living in mind is the only escape but unfortunately mind is not a good servant unless controlled and dealt with sternly.

The best beginning is to attend to heart even if there is too much pain. This center is the source of life and can be healed. It can be restored to it’s original vibrant state so easily and almost effortlessly- It’s not a coincidence that it is called Anaahat, the un-struck or unhurt. Now.. what to do to heal it. To heal the emotional disturbances the only remedy is Love.

All love is expansion, all selfishness is contraction. Love is therefore the only law of life. He who loves lives, he who is selfish is dying. Therefore love for love’s sake, because it is the only law of life, just as you breathe to live.

The primary care for emotional healing is ‘love’ and intensive care is ‘love’. Heart needs relationships.. that are flowing.. love-based and non-toxic. So act on it.. but remember : Do not just discard or label a relationship as toxic without looking at your own contributions in making it so!

We reap what we sow. We are the makers of our own fate. The wind is blowing; those vessels whose sails are unfurled catch it, and go forward on their way, but those which have their sails furled do not catch the wind. Is that the fault of the wind? We make our own destiny.

“Must one feel grateful for being given this life? Must one be grateful for ones ancestors that were the reason for my birth?” you ask.

No sermons can make you do that. In fact you yourself have shown your wisdom when you use the phrase “cultivating gratitude for my existence”. How beautiful.. You are right! The attitude is not taught.. it is cultivated. It is about using life situations for continuous learning, attuning and using it to nurture our spiritual aspect. Why am I saying so? Because we all are essentially ‘spirit in the body’ rather ‘spirit expressing through the body’ or even better ‘body in the spirit’. You too! but..

You have to grow from the inside out. None can teach you, none can make you spiritual. In a day, when you don’t come across any problems – you can be sure that you are travelling in a wrong path. The cheerful mind perseveres and the strong mind hews its way through a thousand difficulties.

Beloved Ranga, you have all the resources. The openness is the key to transformation. Letting go, forgiving others.. learning to do something all the time – if not for self then for others and preferably for others! With the mind coming in the way you may say I don’t think I have capacity to do that but that is not true.

All power is within you; you can do anything and everything. Believe in that, do not believe that you are weak; do not believe that you are half-crazy lunatics, as most of us do nowadays. You can do any thing and everything, without even the guidance of any one. Stand up and express the divinity within you.

Expressing the divinity in you is the purpose and sooner you recognize the better. I am here to help but only if you have courage to follow. Now, you may ask why have I replied to you in different colors. Well.. just the secret is – the black is my expression and the maroon-red is what SV said almost 125 years back. SV who? who else.. one and only  Swami Vivekananda!

Pardon me for all this and don’t ask me now why I quoted Swami Vivekananda. (laughs)

Love and light

-Master AD

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Am I Ready for Vigyan Bhairav Meditations?

Acharya I am working on few techniques from Vigyan Bhairav Tantra in my daily life. One of the techniques I am working on is being aware in the dreams and transcending dreaming. I tried this method and Few months back I was able to be aware in dreams for some time. But after that I am not able to progress and transcend dreaming. Please guide and help me to deepen my meditation. Your guidance is much needed for me right now.

-Prithviraj Patil

Beloved Prithviraj,

Vigyaan Bhairava Tantra is one of the masterpiece in the Tantric Scriptures, a cookbook of Tantric Dharanas wherein a ‘ready practitioner‘ is being presented with countless opportunities (not 112 methods as you may think) to enter the Source or Reality in one’s daily routine. The uniqueness of Tantra is in embracing life with enlightened spirit. Thus when a practitioner is ready, virtually every activity of life is impregnated with the sacredness of shining spirit within- Breathing, Walking, Desiring, Imagining, Feeling, Touching, Listening, Watching, Sneezing, Sex, Dreaming or any other ordinary looking activity then serves as the bidirectional Gateway for the consciousness though which it expresses itself as infinite and absorbs the ‘infinite’ back into the focal point of inner light.

I am not sure if you have any teacher to guide you which is the necessary evil in the path of Tantra (Guru Upaaya – Refer Shiva Sutra 2:6). It is clearly told that without the grace of Guru the veil of Maya isn’t lifted.. but surrendering, bowing down to a living person in blood and flesh who looks, walks, talks, lives a life like we do is extremely painful task for the ego. Thus people decide to do it all by themselves or choose to worship a Guru who is not in the body forfeiting the essence of Teacher-Student relationship. The fact is, without a living teacher we would not have had even the capacity to read and write..

That is not the point you are concerned with. The reality is you have picked up a Tantric book to apply an advanced Tantric Methods without checking your readiness.

WHAT IS MEANT BY READINESS

With clouded vision, contaminated energies, accumulated traumas, dormant tendencies of fear, anger, jealousy, and greed, Taattvic imbalances in the very composition in our physicality, clogged subtle channels that don’t allow free, unhindered expression of ever-luminous Consciousness one can never approach meditation. What most people feel meditation is the beginning of search the absolute but the bitter truth is – Meditation does need preparation.

Further, Tantra has the concept of Malas (Impurities). Mala literally means some undesired, malefic presence in any form – gross matter, energy or thought. As per Tantric system there are three categories in which Malas are divided-

  1. Kaarma Mala (Gross – connected with Kriyaa Shakti)
  2. Maayeeya Mala (Subtle – connected with Gyaana Shakti)
  3. Aaanava Mala (Subtlest – connected with Ichhaa Shakti)

The presence of Malas limit the experience of union – The experience of the continuum that you really are rather than an island of individuality.

Kaarma Mala – takes birth in the belief that doing or action is needed to achieve some fruits. Maayeeya Mala – is about differentiated knowledge, associations, projections, mental constructs that deludes us to firmly associate with the multiplicity of existence and Aaanava Mala – is the feeling of a self-identity separate from the existence, all that is.

WHERE DO MOST PEOPLE STAND

Actually Malas become important because based on the quantity, intensity and variety of Malas the categorization of practitioners is made. The practitioners are called Pramaataa and are divided into the following 7 categories –

  1. Sakala Pramaataa 
  2. Pralayakal Pramaataa
  3. Vigyaanaakal Pramaataa
  4. Mantra Pramaataa
  5. Mantreshwara Pramaataa
  6. Mantra Maheshwara Pramaataa
  7. Akala Pramaata

Most of the mankind stays in the first two categories i.e. Sakala and Pralayaakala and therefore they need to work on themselves. Working on self means freeing the Mind-Body complex with the help of suitable studies and conduct, cleanse and tone up the Naadi System using the power of breath, attaining Tattvic Balance using Tattva-Shuddhi Kriyas and capacity to deal with the three types of energies (Aghora, Ghora, Ghoratar) by way of connecting with the mantras given by Guru.

WHAT SHOULD I DO

Don’t feel that I am discouraging you but the fact is that Vigyaana Bhairava Tantra practices are applicable to people who have lifted themselves minimum to the Vigyaanaakala level and beyond and they need not be picked up by self because if you try a method yourself without knowing the intricacies being explained forehand by your teacher you shall render that technique ineffective for future. That particular technique gets corrupted and won’t work in your mind-body framework even when you get ready!

Beloved Prithviraj, your name says, you are the King of Prithvi, the Earth. Kings do rule this earth but surely not while they are asleep or dreaming but only when they are wide awake, aware of the physicality of their body, this world and their own ego identity. If you want to master an activity.. you have to first practice it while you are experiencing the wakeful state.

Wake up to your ignorance and drop your ego. Surrender to a teacher and follow a system do what your teacher says. Let your teacher choose the suitable Upaaya for you.

Shivoham!

-Acharya Agyaatadarshan Anand Nath

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The Gita: Srimad Bhagwadgita: श्रीमद्भगवद्गीता : Chapter 2:25-26

I, Acharya Agyaatadarshan Anand Nath sa-shaktikaayai bow down at the lotus feet of my first Guru, my revered father Pandit Shri Murli Dhar ji Mishr,  Vidya Guru Kaul Shiromani Shri Shivanand Nath ji, Yoga Guru Paramhamsa Shri Balendu Giri ji Maharaj, Tantra Guru Shri Shri Anta Devji Maharaj, Vama Guru Shri Kaleshwaranand Ji Maharaj and all the compassionate Masters, divine souls of Gurumandala..  I pray for their love, support and guidance always..

Shivoham!

अव्यक्तोऽयमचिन्त्योऽयमविकार्योऽयमुच्यते |
तस्मादेवं विदित्वैनं नानुशोचितुमर्हसि ॥25॥

avyakto ’yam achintyo ’yam avikaaryo ’yam uchyate
tasmaadevam viditvainam naanushochitum arhasi ||25||

avyaktah— unmanifested, unexpressed; ayam— this soul or Truth; achintyah—  inconceivable; ayam— this Self; avikaaryah— unchangeable (free from modifications); ayam— this soul; uchyate— is said; tasmaat— therefore; evam— thus; viditvaa— having known ; enam— this soul; na— not; anushochitum— to grieve; arhasi— befitting

Translation – It is said that This Self is unmanifest; This is inconceivable (beyond comprehension of intellect); This is unchangeable. Therefore, having known the Self thus, you ought not to grieve for this.

We have been contemplating death and clearly there is no real death ever! This shloka is the zenith of Truth where it is said to be unmanifested. If the Self, Truth or Brahman has not manifested itself then what is this world? How come this world has appeared? Does it mean the world comes from Satan instead? This is worth pondering.. put in your share of contemplation while we discuss other adjectives.

Next Truth or Self has been achintya i.e. unthinkable. Of course it is beyond perception of the organs of cognition for it is the seat of all the knowledge. In gross way.. an example should be able to explain it – Your mind knows where is your hand and what it is doing.. but your hands can not gauge or assess what the mind is doing? A higher or deeper aspect is inaccessible to outer or superficial faculties. This mind and body are at the lower ladders.. they are inert.. jada. Self is Chaitanya or conscious – Just like a driver knows or conscious of which part of a car’s engine is malfunctioning but the car can not know what is going in the mind of the driver. Self is therefore beyond the domain of mind and intellect. It is also said to be avikaari – When it has been said to be eternal.. it is in any case unchangeable. Many times it has been said.. like previous shloka says “नैनं छिन्दन्ति शस्त्राणि” and now avikaari “it can not be modified”.. it is more or less the same quality. Although if we get in detail we can say that body goes through 6 vikaaras – birth, growth, decay, modifications, old age and death etc. the Self is beyond all these modifications. As we have already seen that it is not the body.. or jada.

Krishna therefore says.. if you have seen these qualities.. you will not be grieving for this Atma or Soul.

|| Asato Ma Sad Gamaya – The Journey towards the Light ||

Like Arjuna every seeker has to understand this.. the Truth is unmanifest. It looks like manifested.. as Samsaara due to Maya.. Just as in dream we create so many people, road, creatures, events.. but when we get to waking.. we KNOW that those things never existed. In the same way.. it feels that the Self has expressed itself.. manifested itself as world.. but there is no existence of Samsara. It is defect of our perception due to ignorance.. that this world seems to be present in its glory. .

अथ चैनं नित्यजातं नित्यं वा मन्यसे मृतम् |
तथापि त्वं महाबाहो नैवं शोचितुमर्हसि ॥26॥

atha chainam nitya-jaatam nityam vaa manyase mritam |
tathaapi tvam mahaa-baaho naivam shochitum arhasi || 26 ||

atha— if, now, however; cha— and; enam— this Self or soul; nitya-jaatam— taking birth again and again (forever); nityam— always ever; vaa— or; manyase— you think or assume; mritam— dead; tathaa api— even then; tvam— you; mahaa-baaho— with mighty-arms , Arjuna; na— not; evam— like this; shochitum— grieve; arhasi— eligible, befitting

Translation – Even if, you think this Soul is born and dies continually repeatedly, even then, O mighty-armed one, this is not worth grieving thus.

Krishna as a teacher approaches from altogether different direction of practical wisdom. He has two goals in mind – calming down Arjuna and giving him understanding of Truth. In this shloka Krishna is trying to reduce the anxiety of Arjuna by giving him logical argument. He says “O mighty-armed Arjuna! Even if you believe that Soul die and then takes birth as per his Karma there is no reason for you to grieve over this.”

There are many levels on which we are born and then die. Man’s most dreaded fear is about death. In material world, this animal kingdom every creature is programmed to save his body from being destroyed. Man is no different. This tendency to save one’s life is called ‘जिवीविषा’ – the desire to live on. And the reality is that all the bodies, be it of insect, virus, animals or human that are born decay one day and this decay leads to death. It is inevitable. But whose death it is? Is it death of body or that of the entity which owned and wanted to keep the body. Think and contemplate on this level of birth and death!

With our accumulated Karmic rewards and our interactions with this world we are born again. This birth is of a personality, an ego – a Self image. Most of us take this image (body in one’s imagination or field of conviction) as the Self. We continue struggling all our lives saving this ‘Person’ we have become identified with. All the heartbreaks, competitions, debates, sufferings, fights, quarrels and showdowns happen in defending the ‘Goodness’, ‘Greatness’, ‘Righteousness’, ‘Respect’ and ‘Maintaining’ this very ‘Image Body’ of self.. that we give birth to at a later stage of life. All the life people continue to stay tense, fearful and suspicious only to save the pride of this (self)-imagined ‘Self’. In all seriousness and ingenuity they struggle saving the virtual death of this imagined body all through their lives.

But think.. there comes a time when all of this is forcibly taken away from us. That moment inevitably comes in everyone’s life when whatever we think we are, whatever we feel is ‘ours’ – has to be dropped. It may come now or later but it will and we can not stop it from coming.

Krishna is pointing to the same and says that “Arjuna, If you take this Soul to be mortal and if you don’t kill these people now (on the opportune moment when they have challenged you despite being on the side of injustice), they are going to die some or the other day. It is not that if you don’t kill them, it is not that if you disengage from the war they will live here forever.. they will certainly be dead sooner or later.. and they will be born again. This is another reason why you not be getting confused? It doesn’t deserve this much thinking.”

Shivoham!

-Acharya Agyaatadarshan Anand Nath

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