U said we have to do selfless service to progress in our spiritual path, But isnt doing service for progressing in spiritual path also a selfish desire.?
When a mother feeds her child is her motive selfish? This is rarely a selfish act – in fact it is her duty. She does it without expecting anything in return (at least at that time). When child attains adulthood and becomes capable of doing things then mother or parents may start expecting their sons and daughters to use their personal strength to support their needs or even fulfill parent’s personal ambitions.
Your spiritual quest is your baby – your spiritual progress is your duty. You are mothering your spiritual light. This is your primary duty and rightful things done without any violence to fulfill your duty are not selfish at all. Even violence can be your duty if that may be a case. A soldier on the border kills another men but he is not doing it in his own personal interest but in the interest of nation. His prime objective is to protect his countrymen from the invaders and their nuances. Thus it is not selfish.
Further any act, which otherwise may seem selfish can be made a divine duty if coupled with attitude of service and surrender. If a student is studying, he can be doing so with selfish motive like earning a great deal of money, position etc. but if the same student keeps in mind that he/she is studying to earn money/position so that he/she can contribute in bettering the society, environment and the make this world a better place for people around the same work becomes a duty – a worship.
Yes – even desiring spiritual growth can also be an ambition and selfish if this is seen as a means to achieve some sort of recognition, power over others, siddhis etc. However if the spiritual progress is aimed with keeping the underlying principle of service to humanity it is not. It is your duty to understand your true self. Again, the objective of spiritual growth is selfless service and devotion to the divine (the source of this world) thus even this does not qualify for the category of “Selfish”. You may still think that doing a selfless service for spiritual growth is possible but the catch is – if you do service (not selfless) for attaining spiritual growth it simply doesn’t work, it doesn’t take you spiritually any higher. That’s tough Ajay! you simply have to transform your life – your way towards life. You should be in Tao for attaining spiritual growth. Being in Tao means living for others as much as possible, with awareness of your true deeper self.
Remember wanting things for self is not criminal neither it is any sort of sin. But when we over do it and become obsessed with self only even the highest of aspirations would be deemed to become selfish. This body is the means to attain everything in this world – virtually everything, including your spiritual growth as well but can you call the act of good upkeep of your physical body a selfish deed? No. It is your duty to maintain your body so that you can serve others.
You may be thinking “How can I become unselfish despite being engaged in normal day to day activity?”. Tao of creation teaches the same. In brief – the trick is to be aware of your “self” all the time. When you become aware of your self and your awareness deepens the emotions like selfishness, anger, jealousy etc. just start vaporizing. Surrendering the fruit of Karma to the divine is another great way to become free from the burden of selfishness. Good of bad, whatever be outcome of your actions rooted in duty – are His. Choose what you want but do not mistake duty for selfishness.
– Ach. Agyaatdarshan Anand Nath