Sonu: One professor was retiring from our college. A day before he showed me, a long biodata he had formed, with some 63 publications out of which around 15 in international journal and when i appreciated it, he said when he did all the stuides , he felt he was doig a great job, but today feels futility of it and questions what was the need of it. I felt as if he was questioning his whole life. AD, Please give me some insight what does really achievement mean and how one should live? I dont want to feel this way ever.
AD: Sonu, this feeling is not very unique.. it has been the case with almost every so called learned ones. Some realize it just before their death, some may be bit more intelligent and are able to see the terminal.. the result much before. But this is bound to happen the way you live your life today.
I have heard when Einstein was dying someone asked him “What would you like to become if you take another birth?” And he replied.. “I would prefer to be a plumber in my next life. I will not want to be sceintist again.” Now we may think.. what a great scientist and what great discoveries he made in his life time.. the more intellectual lot of us would like to become an Einstein but what a joke.. Einstein himself is not interested to be himself ever again!
This is nothing new beloved Sonu, the way most of people live life at best it can be summarized in one word “Mistake”. And who wants to repeat the mistake? None. But believe me despite this elmost everyone would repeat this mistake. Why the mistake is repeated is another bigger question but I today I prefer to talk about why life becomes a mistake.
The word mistake is a beautiful word – I am not taking its dictionary meaning. I would rather give it another meaning – Miss in taking.. When you do not receive an idea or thing in its intended way.. you are commiting miss-take. And exactly this is happening in your life. Life has so much to offer and people go on missing. Someone said life is just about 2500 weekends for those people are alive over weekends only.. I say life is about infinite of moments.. endless.. eternal… undivided.. totally unstructured. It is you who have broken it in groups of months, weeks. Existence divided it in day and night.. merely two divisions but human mind has grouped it in so many ways. And every group has space for future projection. And future can be projected when you miss the present.
And there are certain basic miss-takes. People are missing the beauty of flow of time. The ceaseless eternal flow of time has been captivated in your watches. The time has lost its meaning. Numbers on your dial have more meaning to you now. The utter joy of watching undivided flow of time is lost.. in stead of the beautiful river flowing we have made a ladder out of it. Now we grow old in steps of years.. weeks… hours.. not in eternally flow. So called Yoga Gurus have robbed off the pleasures of breathing and meditation just by ignorantly introducing number counts in breathing.. the whole mind gets focused on the numbers.. the sheer joy of breathing is gone!
There is mistake in learning process. There is immense joy in learning but only when learning is an end to itself.. not the means to an end. Till the time is not bothered about exams his learning is a natural and divine phenomenon because the child is learning.. but he is learning it all without having any purpose. And for him learning is beautiful.. thrilling experience. But the competition driven utilitarian society is not interested in your joy.. it is interested in your utility so it will give you grades on how you learn, what you learn and whether you are able to prove that .. all senseless efforts but very engaging.. because these are fodder to your animalistic instincts.
There is mistake in using what is available for us. Out of this social hypnosis people forget that life is not about acquiring anything.. storing anything.. it is about experiencing but then we want to save it for tomorrow. A mistake again. It is happening everywhere.
You mistake is in receiving yourself as you are.. this gives rise to competition. This extends to other domain as well. So much wealth has accumulated in few hands that 80% people in the world are without sufficient food, cloth and shelter. Why? Because yet again there is war going on.. who is better business man, who is richest person on the earth. The whole life is lived on these basic animalistic instincts of competition. Out of completitiveness the situation is getting worse by each passing year. Sociatist may be living in fools paradise that someday everyone will have equal share on nature’s resources I bet it can never be possible unless the right seeds are sown in the minds of people. It is not possible before we cut the competition off.
There are mistakes in experiencing relationships.. The bonds between two people are no more the consistent flow of love energy, they have become the names given to these. In reality there are no names.. it is only flow of loving energy between two hearts. The vibrations of heart keep a relationship alive.. but people would prefer to miss a joyous relationship rather contaminate it with ridicule and indignity unless it has a tag on it. So many times in life we commit this mistake.
The life becomes a series of misses. And why? In fact there are so many wrong notions about life which are being taught.. some consciously and some unconsciously. And trust me these all engage you in a mind game.. these do not allow you to be what you are. This eats up your life.. and at the end of it people feel deceived. They feel that they have been cheated and have been persuaded by some unknown force to do all that which they did so enthusiactially all their lives.
People are being blessed by elders “Live long”.. I say don’t live long.. I say it doesn’t matter how long you live but how deep. And to live deep you have to develop the awareness. You have to get rid of your watches, your degrees, your money, your tags on relationships.. when you leave it all. And When you have thrown these concepts out of your window.. when are able to shrug it off and say “So what!” then only life can starts.
The professor you are talking about is a brave man who admitted it in front of you. He is lucky too.. he still have some time left in his life and he can definitely live. He has learnt his lessons which are definitely beyond the books he read. Now is the time for him to “live” but trust me that would’t happen so easily. Old habits die hard. Only a master can wake you up by banging your head on a wall. But telling you.. never ever try to wake sleeping people. They get angry easily.. they want to sleep for some more time.. till the time they are pushed into the valley of death and thus the sleep continues. So you have seen him.. learn from his mistake.. meditate upon it. I can assure you – you will experience a paradigm change.
But then awareness is the key.. no momentary realization has been able to bring about a revolution. Draw the learning out of an encouter.. and live that.
If you ask me, I have a simple formula – If you want to live life.. remember death. – AD