I understand by spirituality you mean self-realizaion and if not then I would prefer correcting it before further elaborating on it.
Sujatha, There is no excuse for not making sincere inquiry. This complacency and hope has actually been surrounding since millions of lives and we continue believing that something will happen someday and when time will be ripe it will happen itself… in its own accord. But this doesn’t happen like this. False hopes are real impediments.. We must know what it takes to leave the clutches of gravitation. We have to make conscious and wholehearted efforts towards it. Do you really want to escape? But why?
Yes! it is right for those to whom it happens and actually it happens while doing anything. Buddha got realization while he was taking bath. It happened to Krishnamurti while addressing the conference. It happened to Nanak while weighing something on the scale… plenty of examples are there which make us believe it can happen on its own accord. But the truth is in complete contrast to this belief. What we see the event and occasion in all such cases but what we ignore is the very preparation… The psyche of such people. The very genre of such individuals is deeply rooted in honest, ernest, sincere and consistent inquiry.. they are constantly haunted by the question and they tread their path in the unknown terrirories through arduous efforts..
The constant hammering on the wall makes it weaker by every blow and with each blow it is breaking.. the process of breaking is still hidden but it is happening within. Each blow is actually an effort to break it. But if a person sees the last blow when the mason casually hit the wall and it crumbles into pieces will be bound to believe that it is sufficient to break a huge, thick wall by a casual hit of a hammer. Not true!
And exactly the same point I wanted to draw attention to by mentioning – once a year Jagaran and all. There is nothing worthwhile achievable without discipline and hard work. The intensity is what matters.. Its about reaching 100 degree, the boiling point.. or else we continue to stay at 90 whole life.. the water isn’t going to boil. The transformation will not happen. The same goes true for our spiritual journey.
There is a beautiful story I always recollect whenever I talk of intensity – A disciple was staying in the company of master since 10 years. The master was enlightened and was clearly able to see that the disciple is stuck up. He knew that the disciple is not progressing although seemingly doing everything. With time the frustration started creeping in the disciple also and one evening he approached the master and posed the question “Why is God still deceiving me? Why is that I am unable to see him even after putting so much effort. So many years have passed by and nothing is happening. I want an answer.”
Master asked “Do you really yearn to see the God?”
And disciple though amazed on this question said “Yes of course. That is what I am wanting from last 11 years!”
The master smiled, nodded but kept quiet. The disciple was devout, he dint catch the mater by his neck.. had he been modern age disciple.. he would have taken an answer then and there and if not then his life.. after all how would you react to someone who smiles at your agony of wasting 11 years! Today when someone keeps you waiting at the reception for 5 extra minutes you know what all sorts of emotions you go through. People are paying heavy primium to get VIP darshan at temples. Who wants to wait? And above all the old man is smiling.. he deserves a punch right at his nose. The master was lucky.. he survived smiling.. (smiles)
The very next day when the disciple was taking bath in the river as morning ritual and as he had just taken the dip the master jumped and overpowered the disciple. He pushed the disciple further down in the water… holding him there. Soon disciple started gasping for air.. but mater wouldn’t leave. This struggle for breath continued for a while and then suddenly master let him free. The disciple was breathless and dying for air.. as soon as master let him loose.. You can imagine what he would have done. It took few minutes when disciple returned to normal breathing.
As soon as he normalized and looked at master in disbelief and before he could get angry the Master asked “What did you want when you were there down below?”
“I needed breath.. I needed air. So much badly that if I din’t get it I would die.” Disciple replied.
“Have you ever needed God with this intensity in last 11 years? Have you ever felt this much deep yearning for Him as you felt for air? And you say you have been waiting to see God. Did you wait become this much intense ever?” Master asked with the smile..
The disciple was speechless.. he humbly bowed down at the feet and started crying.. His realization was so deep.. he had wasted 11 years of his precious life, his sorrow was paramount.. he pleaded like guilty to the master.. he confessed umpteen times in humility.. he actually washed his Master’s feet with his tears.. the moment of intensity had come.. and he lost his ego completely in his repentence.. in that moment he became senseless. He entered Samadhi.. he had become enlightened.
If that is the intensity of your thirst for enlightenment.. one moment is sufficient. And that is why I say.. Put your 100% every time.. get disciplined.. be regular and make your intent clear and focussed.. And if your inquiry has become that much intense.. it really doesn’t matter what you do. Visit to temple is not needed, the Jagarans are of no use.. You may get enlightenment here and now, while reading it!
Sudarshan Kriya has nothing to do with self realization anyways (Smiles)..