I dn’t wanna stop!

[Following is the full chat session of AD with Desh Deepak Chaturvedi. Desh Deepak is a Ad-Film maker and has done some of great films. Desh Deepak (DD) is full of life, has a great sense of humour and thus specializes in the humor-laden-advertising. DD has recently joined the mailing list of "Sacred Association" and has an extremely interesting conversation.]

DD: Gd evening, I read your blog.. it is interestin..

 

AD: Nice. This is on spirituality.. I have started contributing to this.. on request of those.. who have given me immense love and also an opportunity to be their guru, philosopher and master who can hammer them..

 

DD: That’s really nice..!

 

AD: Just mind you.. some of the concepts are really tough.. but i am sure you can appreciate that.

 

DD: I shall definitely try to understand. By the way I am also Guru – Love Guru

 

AD: Great! Then when love guru is starting a blog? The teens are really in very much need of this from you.. start it soon they should not be deprived of your expert advice (lol)

 

DD: Who are these three individuals that u talk about who have the potential to grow to your expectations.

 

AD: One is Shekhar. He is not a consistent practicenor but has potential to grow. Needs indirect hammering though.. yet I know he would keep falling but keep travelling.. baby steps in fact.

 

DD: ok

 

AD: Another one is Devpriya.. who has partnered me in many of my Sadhnas. She has certain flowering which is extremely rare. Another is Amit who was in Ahemadabad..

 

DD: ok

 

AD:  Amit is very fine Meditator and has been responsive to the initiation. Wonderful experiences he is having.. and growing fabulously..sab gurudev ki kripa hai

 

DD: Gurudev?

 

AD: My spiritual guru  who has given me this name too, Agyaat Darshan because it was me who could see him in true sense.

 

DD: Oh, thats really Great..

 

DD: I read your blog and it has something about hypnosis too. Do you use Hypnosis?

 

AD: I have left it to others in my circle..

 

DD: Why??

 

AD: I am no more into aero-modeling and aeronautics  i am interested in teaching rocket science.

 

DD: What is that?

 

AD: Deepak, when people talk of worldly desires.. still wanting more of the same cake they have been eating since lives then they need it.. and these rituals of therapies are aimed to attune them to become more fit to gain material abundance.. and social-able.. I call all these things part of Aeronautics..

 

DD: OK

 

AD: And when you feel.. Enough is Enough! When someday you yell.. I am not satisfied with these tiny flashes of these gains.. then you seek.. The real. You seek your true nature.. and that I call Rocket Science.. The science of self discovery..

 

DD: But is there a need to seek true nature? I think we just need to remove the blinkers put on by society and its there fr everyone to see. Its just that the cotton wool of lust …by lust I mean all kinds of lust……. has blinded us

 

AD: I am listening..

 

DD: we just need to free our eyes and by tht i mean the eyes of the soul of all baggage and burden and it is ready to fly. Burdening ourselves with expectations .. of any kind is what hinders this flight. In my own humble wisdom I live moments and these moments are a lifetime in their own right and to be in a moment is nirvana.  It is this attitude that has me lookin forward to every moment and yess even the moment when the earthly sojourn ends

 

AD: hmm..

 

DD: coz for me tht will also be an experience which i am loookin forward to I m here on a journey ….. and that is y i am detached to whtever happens. i am in this world i live by the same desires bt i am unattached

i dnt consider nythin permanent or mine hence to me that is how i hv rid my self of lust. Though i do have sex bt i am nt a slave to the desire and i dnt want to possess other bodies thru it hence i believe tht i am in the process of evolving. Over to u guru ji

 

AD:

Do I need to say you are right?

Do I need to say you are wrong??

 

DD: Right and wrong is nothin but perspectives. absolute truth kuch hota hai agar to mai jaanta nahi, mere andar ke bhagwaan k siwa mai kisi ko pehchanta nahi

 

AD: Neither it would be correct for you if I say wrong or right .. because it is always intellectually right.. but what matters the most is the feeling you are describing in the process of your evolution.. the feelings through senses and feelings without them.. and the life is a journey to get back to our original state of being while still being in this body where we have mastered to feel and experience the permanent without the senses.. and that is why I insist without meditativeness the inner journey can never be complete.

 

DD: completion hi to nahi chahiye. i want to be in this journey forever

i dnt wanna stop!!

 

AD: That’s really interesting point. And let me tell you that the ultimate experience actually doesn’t stop the journey.. rather expands your senses beyond senses.. your ability to seek beyond the limited boundaries of your senses.. and yes.. there is lot to explore.. limiting ourselves to the experiences of this physical reality is not very intelligent step in its own way.

 

The more we get in the more we know and the farther we see the road stretching.. the journey actually never ends.. but when I start talking about the virtues I have.. and justifying the way I live……. it has actually always been there.. and there is no one who would like to believe that he is traitor to himself.. or not doing things right. Because this world which we feel, touch, taste and see is also a plane of expereince.. but when we are able to recognize the fact that all we are looking for in the name of conituning our jorney is just different permutations and combinations of feelings getting generated of our senses.. and when we see that there is moon beyond to go.. then only we choose to invent a rocket..

 

Moon is another plane.. totally un-experienced reality. Reaching there is not the end but a beginning of exploration of space beyond.

 

When you say that I am here only to continue the journey.. is like closing the eyes to another realms of existence. But trust me.. when you enter inner world through meditation and you start the journey.. you first time in your life experience that there are so many beautiful milestones to be achieved within rather than just a faint belief that there is a God sitting in my heart and communicating with me through my inner voice. Although that’s also true for the uninitiated and it is good to feel that.. but staying there with this as final dictum of self is the limit we mostly imposed on self.

 

DD: ok

 

AD: And yes.. there is no need to relinquish anything here.. in this world.. In fact from this world you get the steel.. you get the fuel.. you get almost everything to make your rocket and techniques to burn the fuel in such way to help you start your journey in the unlimited space.. so I have never ask anyone to renounce. And in fact in reality you can NOT renounce.. so why try that. It would be futile. God has already arranged the travel itinerary for you.. He is already taking you to another realm of death where yet again you will be devoid of senses.. and you would experience that reality through death without your senses only. So he has it in store.. it is due to come. You are nearing that every moment. My insistence on speeding up the journey and taking a quantum leap within is all about asking you to experience it by choice rather than compulsion. To experience it in full awareness rather than fearfully towards the ends.. or rather just at the end. And why is that needed? Because when we enter that dimension senseless or even senselessly (as I call it) as a compulsion arising out of death.. we fall in an unknown territory.. we are unable to move around.. its utter darkness and we are unable to drive.. we are unable to scale the ditches or peaks.. and just in some time.. out of fear.. you jump back.. you yet again come back to the known territory, that is here.. and this is coming again – The cycle of death and birth.

 

DD: Sounds logical.. intersting..

 

AD: And only intelligent person like you.. having wisdom and logic can see this fact. So why not use this launch pad.. and learn to escape.. and come back too.. while we are still alive.. well within this body.

 

AD: And you will have so many wonderful experiences.. the endless journey begins then. This journey.. which we long for.. and wish that it may continue.. will not. Death will forcibly end it.. even if we do not wish to. I invite you to seek deeper.. jump into unknown.. and experience. The journey to the infinite is never ending.. but we must learn the rules and be familiar with the territories.

 

DD: I am curious to know more about it, we shall soon sit together and talk about it.

 

DD: It was nice chatting with u after and for so looooong time

 

AD: Thank you for patiently listening to me.

 

DD: the pleasure has surely been mine

 

AD: Love and Light to you. We shall meet soon.. and I will make you experience some of it.

 

DD: i am eagerly looking forward to it..

 

AD: God Bless You

Tatvamasi!

 AD, I love to hear it from you. Someone I encountered recently playing around the word ‘Advait’. It created a thirst in my being to yet again listen to you. My master, say it unto me once more please. – Devpriya

Beloved Devpriya,

The locus standi of a common seeker doesn’t allow him to dwelve so deep to appreciate this concept of ‘Advaita’.. which says “Eko Braham dvitiyonaasti”. In my more than 18 years of spiritual guradianship of so many seekers I have encountered only three such potential individual. At least in them I could see a remote possibility of flowering in them. All others have been just begining their journey. This state of affair is really sad but then it is as it is supposed to be. Buddhahood is rarest of phenomenon. The probability of encounters to probables is the exact reflection of the situation. But then a master is bound to speak a language which most of his people are able to relate to.. so am I.

However that does not take away the beauty of all other individuals who are along with me in their journey, soaring new heights everyday with every therapy session and meditativeness which has seeped into their life. They are growing, they are crawling with dignity.. even that is worth appreciation. I have been feeding them. I have been minding them and I know some day they would get up on their feet to be able to walk along. So that I can take them to the lake of  immortality for their final baptisation.

People have started treating spritual masters as therapists and counsellors and it is not their problem. The new generation of so called masters is responsible for this and it is worth giving a thought. I know some 50 years back there were not many masters. Not many preachers. There were legacy of those who were. They had something to offer.. they had some substance in them. Today media has done a lot and advertising has played a great role in establishing the fakes. I am not against them they are doing what they are supposed to do. Giving their followers what they want – and even you know what you want!

Advait is ultimate concept and almost beyond words but so many commentaries are available for Sankara’s Advait. Mandan Mishra lost the well fought battle of words and became follower of Sankara along with his wife. But how did it change the world? Sankrara had to do “Par kaya Pravesh” to experience “Kam sutras”. He did establish the “Rajju-Sarpa Siddhanta” but for what? This actually has harmed the humanity even more. People read it and falsely start believing that know it.

So if someone engages in talks with you about such nonsense just undertand that in this utilitarin world people want to use spirituality as means rather than end unto it. They wish to earn good name, fame, money and power and that pseudo feeling of “i am spiritual”, “I am knowledgeable”, “I am well read”. So don’t encourage them.  This is not the aim, not at all for me at least you know.

I am not here to give  any feeling of “Holier than thou”. I am here to show  the mirror. Most people fear facing me because they feel they are ridiculed, exposed. Many of people have run away because I came too harsh on them. I am here to hit. Hit hard and precisely there where it hurts more. And when I do so.. I have to be at their level. Allow me that but know that I am here to operate upon psyche of such people and shake them up. I am here to help them grow in their mind and to take them to that state where  some day they would be able to realize the futility of mind game - their face, their curves, their name, their virtues, their knowledge, their social position, their relationships, identit.

I am definitely not going to teach or preach. I allow to experience. That is all they need. The other day a  homosexual person approached me asking if he was fit to self  realize. I said to him laughing.. “You are too choosy. If you have not been able to come to terms with both sexes. How do you feel you could accept everything as it is?” He seemingly understood what I meant but all he could do was his effforts to be able to penetrate women. He later confessed this and I told him that although this was a courageous begining and all the means were ok till they lead him to growth. But self-medication is not advisable. Refer the physician. This opposite movement wasn’t needed. I had the medicine but only if someone asks.

I don’t encourage you to gather certificates of fitness neither I give them. This would further strengthen your own shell behind which you hide.. this falsification of the so called persona is the biggest obstacle in making you really interested. The spiritual journey is a individual journey but best complimented in pairs upto a point. Choose your partner and tell each other.. Tatvamasi, “You are that.”

I have been asked “would you suggest me hypnosis?” No, I know you are already hypnotized by the society. You need few sessions to de-hypnotize yourself. But yet again.. only if you could become aware of this fact that you are hypnotized by the society that very moment you are out of that. It can happen by Master’s therapy. All hypnosis is a process of sleepy state and I cant allow you to sleep any more. I want you to be fully awake.  

Today certain beliefs instilled in your unconscious mind are governing your actions and if I use hypnotherapy to program your subconsious the opposite way it would be another belief. You would still be operating unconsciously. I want to free you from all beliefs so that spontenity can become your nature. I want you to wake up and open your eyes to the reality of your own being. You should be able to see your own belief system. And that is what I recommend. Then in that state of awareness you can enter the kingdom of self. It is not possible through opposite beliefs.

Devpriya, When Sankara told the people around… “Tatvamasi..you are that” it was his realization. It was his experience. It was he who declared.. “I know you are that and actually there is nothing else than that.” It is not yours untill you make it yours. Chanting it wouldn’t help. Nither believing it. But who is ready shed the masks. Who is ready to shed the clothes. Who is ready to be naked and dance in front of master? Show me that person and I can show him “Tatvamasi”.

- AD

There is something in my mind which haunts me all the time. ” I am all alone in this world. why do I exsist?” Can you please help me, AD. – Toolika

Meditate in Loneliness!

Toolika, Situations are favorable, they are helping you already. Such feelings are precious gifts in which you start getting a feeling of being alone in this world and question the reason of your very existence. Only such moments have been able to trigger the journey in seekers. These thoughts are actually flashes of our reality and only fortunate people have such thoughts.. you are blessed!

When Gautam Siddhartha saw a dead body.. being carried for the funeral he got a question. Is this ultimate destination of mine too? What is the purpose of life? Why do I exist? This was the trigger for Gautam to bloom into a Buddha at later stage in life. But he did not miss the opportunity. Like every other man who goes to crematorium one day.. attends the funeral.. staying there he thinks of futility of life and all sorts of so called noble things flash in his mind.. but as soon as he leaves the place and gets back to humdrum of life he is the same man again. He has lost the possibility of being a Buddha.

Existence is very kind.. by design it never gives a person what he wants and it is even more generous in taking away what we want the most.. at a time when we thought we needed it most! It is her greatness that she gives us certain moments of pain and misery so that we can be disturbed and disconnected from everything and everyone around.. so that we can be with ourselves.. But most of us would miss the golden opportunity… but you can choose not to.

It is not by chance that great seers and enlightened ones have praised the moments of austerity.. deprivation.. poverty, pain and grief.. Abrurrahim Khankhana says.. “Rahiman Vipada hoo bhali jo thode din hoye.. hit anhit ya jagat me.. jaan parat sab koy”.. Nanak could see grief all around.. “Nanak Dukhiya sab sansaar” It does not mean that in the history of that time there were no affluent people around.. that there were no parties going on, that there were no people enjoying wine and women. It is not that people were not wealthy or healthy.. In fact it was the time when India was still called “Golden Bird”.. but people of high caliber and sharp intellect like him are able to see beneath these golden wraps.. and they know.. the effect of wine will come down. The sense of achievement will soon fade away.. the sheen on the face of bride will become dull.. the baby whose birthday is being celebrated is going to be old and weak.. today’s admirer is soon going to ridicule.. The enlightened ones see it all at the same time. Actually only they see…  While we tend to ignore the whole picture. And mind you they are not pessimistic about life at all.. In reality only these are the people who are always joyous.. happy and dancing with joy.. with so much radiance on their face. They are the people who are so blissful that they want to give it to everyone around.. their cups are full and the joy is spilling over.. The pain in this sense may become a gateway to bliss..

But what happens to you? These golden moments which trigger hopelessness, make you feel disconnected from the world, make you lonely and aloof.. you try to escape and find another game which can engage you. When people become disappointed.. they want to forget this. Because this feeling of being alone seems like virtual death. In fact people prefer death than being alone. You can understand how powerful this feeling can be.. and that is why this feeling can induce the powerful change in you… This is time to wake up and stay awake.. not trying to do away the feeling but use this as an opportunity of self expansion.. self inquiry.

This feeling of loneliness has to be used. And this is the best time to discover that you are not alone.. And I know you are not. In fact no one is! The mere fact that I exist.. You or the other is inevitable. Either there can be no one else if would be I and the other one has to be there. And that other one is there always.. all the time.. since eternity.. within you.. closer to you than your breath and your heartbeats and you unknowingly have been searching his heartbeats in others. There is a infinite joy in being with Him.. but you have been missing that out. Most importantly you can be with him so easily when you are with no one else.. in your loneliness.. in your solitude.

Toolika, I would advise you to meditate on this feeling. It is a wonderful opportunity for you and it can be used to expand your receptivity. It is a expansion exercise for beginners.. This method is very simple but highly effective. Do it when you are deeply into that feeling.. or even otherwise:

Choose to sit alone.. preferably doors closed.. in a comfortable posture. Cross legged if possible with hands on keens or else sit on a chair.. put your hands on your thighs.. palms facing sky.. Take few deep breaths.. ease your body a bit and relax. Keep your spine straight. Throughout this technique your eyes should be closed.. Now focus on the sound of your breath…. feel your body completely. Slowly slowly as you become receptive.. Try to listen to other sounds in within your body… like sound of your heart beat.. You are surrounded by your body… gradually you will feel you have expanded a bit.. it is ok.

Expand your sphere of attention.. make it almost the size of your room.. now try becoming aware of every sound around you.. from all the sides.. up and down.. your sphere has expanded.. all the sounds are running towards you.. and you joyously accept it.. without judgment.. without rejecting.. without selecting.. accept it.. Your breathing would be rhythmic by now…

Expand your sphere of awareness even more.. make it the size of your town.. silently.. attentively.. become aware of all the sounds coming towards you.. you may feel as if the whole city.. is in you.. in your domain of awareness.. feel love for everyone.. without bias.. feel joy in your heart spreading out.. and falling on every live or inert being in your sphere of awareness.. do not let your mind stick to any particular object and if it does.. bring it back to your sound of breathing.. while still remaining expanded.. keep growing… and make your sphere as big as this earth.. enveloping all the continents.. oceans.. mountains.. radiate love to every living being around you.. feel that they are connected to you… Feel the unconditional connection they all have with you. Thank the trees around for giving you life.. thank the elements for holding your body in place.. thank every known and unknown being for you may not know if he has helped you to ease your life.. Put a smile on your face.

Stay in this position.. relish the joy of keeping the whole world in womb of your awareness sphere.. with care and gentleness.. relish the joy of being with all..

Take 3-4 deep breaths.. rub your palms together.. and gently massage your face up-down.. Open your eyes with a smile on face.

Enough for the today!

- AD

Dear Acharya, Do we really get happiness if we penance ourselves for some bad deed done by us, since it is said that sorrow is followed by joy and happiness? – Kamini K.

Tomorrow may be God's turn to blow it off.. Why suffer today?

Who says so?

While pure spirituality deals with abstract understanding of true self, the religion diluted the very spirit of it and tried to translate it into easily accpetable, logically understandable practices. Why? Because the essence of spirituality is beyond the logical understanding.. the whole experience is beyond mind, logic does not rule the world on supreme consciousness or God. All absurdities are possible there but human mind is unable to conceive that.  He still tries to reach that experience through simple mathematical formulae like 1+1=2.. it is actually not possible. The experience of God is beyond your logical understanding hence the difficulty and such a low success rate.. not because it is extremely difficult to realize God but because it is extremely difficult to drop the simple logic and mathematics we have learnt.

Religion in their attempt to simplify the path for all and also to support the social structure try giving your ceremonies and concepts to convince you that if not today then you will sure reach there tomorrow.  And there is no tomorrow in the Kingdom of God. It is all in present. Tomorrow is the hope of a conditioned mind.. the cunning mind. It is that poisonuos concept which eats up your today for that tomorrow which yet again comes as today to make you behave in the pattern you have always been facing “today” i.e. hoping to get it tomorrow.

Kamini, The concept of good and bad.. is valid for this plane but when your understanding is able to pierce through this virtual reality then only you can defy the laws given by your priests, pandits and holy books. When you feel you have committed a sin do you really want punishment? Even a child will not want that.. why do you look forward to getting punished. And worse.. you are thinking punishing yourseld through penance. This is probably a concept of a priest which is driving you. Beware!

All the commentaries and commentators, preachers and religious teachers of virtually every religion have been cunningly postponing your happinees. Hinduism is no exception. Christianity is the zenith of such postponement. Their messiah suffered in the hands of jews while he was alive and then some of those guilt ridden jews became first christians. They had seen him suffering in this life while he claimed to be son of god.. how could they iamagine a better life for themselves. They glorified volunteering in pain and sufferings for better life after death. While their messiah, Joshua the shephered preferred to leave the country of barbarians and uneducated to settle far away in the  east his people created Christianity. His absence from the scene allowed those people behind him to completely misunderstand his teachings and concepts. He would have been yet again praying to God to forgive them for what they were doing. I wonder if he could resurrect once then why did he not come back again.. probably he became hopeless. The people created a suffering laden philosophy out of his teachings where all through his life a believer has to pay the debts he owes towards the Jesus.. after all Jesus died for them. A ridiculuous concept but it got easily accepted as people were already feeling they have committed a sin. The beautiful phenomenon called Jesus got contaminated in so called Christianity. Most of them through rigorous preaching were made to believe.. there is only one God and of course only one son of God, The Jesus. Thus the christians are postponing their happiness or at least the creme-de-la-creme part of their earnings out of their sufferings for the judgement day.

Islam is no better and even Hinduism got corrupted to some extent in commentaries to make spirituality a household phenomenon. All sorts of nonsense in the name of pleasing Gods were introduced.. and why someone should please Gods anyways? Why should people renounce and suffer? Because the efforts to make the present are arduous.. himalayan task. The easy way is postpone it.. assure of fortunes in next life. The unending dances of most beautiful maidens in the heaven.

Christianity is bit more advanced in postponing the happiness in comparison to Hinduism.. they have to wait till the final day.. The Judgement day. Hindus are allowed to reap the partial if not all benefits of their penance in this life as well but yes there is a trick.. they need to suffer in order to get rid of their bad karmas. Easy bargain.. and people easily accept it.

Kamini, it is good that you question it. This is first step towards growth. But if by any means you are asking this thinking I would give second the concept of penance for joys of tomorrow I am telling you that I will not. These concepts have kept your happiness at bay for your life and do you feel there would be another tomorrow for you to rejoice and relish this life? My answer to your question is No. Only suffering can follow suffering. Only joy can follow joy. If you want to create painfree and joyous series of moments.. do not fall victim to any concept of tomorrow. You have today in your hand.. at your disposal.. try being gentle towards you. The word Tapas has been most misunderstood.. it simply means arriving at deepest understanding so that resolution of your pains is achieved. All Tapas and penance is about hightening your awareness.. All the concepts of starving yourself of food, water and basic amenities is crap. There is nothing which can not be achieved in your airconditioned room which would be available by exposing your delicate body to extreme conditions. Giving pains to your body is crime unto yourself, unto God.. he has given you senses to understand and stay away from what is not pleasant to you.. and you must respect.

The only way I see bliss can manifest in anyone’s life is in not postponing it for tomorrow. And mind you bliss is beyond pain and happiness… but definitely achievable.

Rejoice, love.. dance and be full of gtatitude towards him.. today!

Don’t have reasons? Don’t worry.. just do so.. you will have plenty.

Enough for today?

AD, Any act can trigger sprituality some day. Be it organizing a Mata Jagaran once a year, Visiting Shirdi twice a month or Doing Sudarshan Kriya every day. Any comments? – Sujatha

Self realization too needs that critical mass.. and that is the intensity of your thirst!

I understand by spirituality you mean self-realizaion and if not then I would prefer correcting it before further elaborating on it.

Sujatha, There is no excuse for not making sincere inquiry. This complacency and hope has actually been surrounding since millions of lives and we continue believing that something will happen someday and when time will be ripe it will happen itself… in its own accord. But this doesn’t happen like this. False hopes are real impediments.. We must know what it takes to leave the clutches of gravitation. We have to make conscious and wholehearted efforts towards it. Do you really want to escape? But why?

Yes! it is right for those to whom it happens and actually it happens while doing anything. Buddha got realization while he was taking bath. It happened to Krishnamurti while addressing the conference. It happened to Nanak while weighing something on the scale… plenty of examples are there which make us believe it can happen on its own accord. But the truth is in complete contrast to this belief. What we see the event and occasion in all such cases but what we ignore is the very preparation… The psyche of such people. The very genre of such individuals is deeply rooted in honest, ernest, sincere and consistent inquiry.. they are constantly haunted by the question and they tread their path in the unknown terrirories through arduous efforts..

The constant hammering on the wall makes it weaker by every blow and with each blow it is breaking.. the process of breaking is still hidden but it is happening within. Each blow is actually an effort to break it. But if a person sees the last blow when the mason casually hit the wall and it crumbles into pieces will be  bound to believe that it is sufficient to break a huge, thick wall by a casual hit of a hammer. Not true!

And exactly the same point I wanted to draw attention to by mentioning – once a year Jagaran and all. There is nothing worthwhile achievable without discipline and hard work. The intensity is what matters.. Its about reaching 100 degree, the boiling point.. or else we continue to stay at 90 whole life.. the water isn’t going to boil. The transformation will not happen. The same goes true for our spiritual journey.

There is a beautiful story I always recollect whenever I talk of intensity – A disciple was staying in the company of master since 10 years. The master was enlightened and was clearly able to see that the disciple is stuck up. He knew that the disciple is not progressing although seemingly doing everything.  With time the frustration started creeping in the disciple also and one evening he approached the master and posed the question “Why is God still deceiving me? Why is that I am unable to see him even after putting so much effort. So many years have passed by and nothing is happening. I want an answer.”

Master asked “Do you really yearn to see the God?”

And disciple though amazed on this question said  “Yes of course. That is what I am wanting from last 11 years!”

The master smiled, nodded but kept quiet. The disciple was devout, he dint catch the mater by his neck.. had he been modern age disciple.. he would have taken an answer then and there and if not then his life.. after all how would you react to someone who smiles at your agony of wasting 11 years! Today when someone keeps you waiting at the reception for 5 extra minutes you know what all sorts of emotions you go through. People are paying heavy primium to get VIP darshan at temples. Who wants to wait? And above all the old man is smiling..  he deserves a punch right at his nose. The master was lucky.. he survived smiling.. (smiles)

The very next day when the disciple was taking bath in the river as morning ritual and as he had just taken the dip the master jumped and overpowered the disciple. He pushed the disciple further down in the water… holding him there. Soon disciple started gasping for air.. but mater wouldn’t leave. This struggle for breath continued for a while and then suddenly master let him free. The disciple was breathless and dying for air.. as soon as master let him loose.. You can imagine what he would have done. It took few minutes when disciple returned to normal breathing.

As soon as he normalized and looked at master in disbelief and before he could get angry the Master asked “What did you want when you were there down below?”

“I needed breath.. I needed air. So much badly that if I din’t get it I would die.” Disciple replied.

“Have you ever needed God with this intensity in last 11 years? Have you ever felt this much deep yearning for Him as you felt for air? And you say you have been waiting to see God. Did you wait become this much intense ever?” Master asked with the smile..

The disciple was speechless.. he humbly bowed down at the feet and started crying.. His realization was so deep.. he had wasted 11 years of his precious life, his sorrow was paramount.. he pleaded like guilty to the master.. he confessed umpteen times in humility.. he actually washed his Master’s feet with his tears.. the moment of intensity had come.. and he lost his ego completely in his repentence.. in that moment he became senseless. He entered Samadhi.. he had become enlightened.

If that is the intensity of your thirst for enlightenment.. one moment is sufficient. And that is why I say.. Put your 100% every time.. get disciplined.. be regular and make your intent clear and focussed.. And if your inquiry has become that much intense.. it really doesn’t matter what you do. Visit to temple is not needed, the Jagarans are of no use.. You may get enlightenment here and now, while reading it!

Sudarshan Kriya has nothing to do with self realization anyways (Smiles)..